First, thanks so much for the thoughtful and beautiful comments on yesterday’s post. I feel like you guys took my random selection of opinions and turned the post into something that could actually be useful to others, just by sharing your experiences and feelings. (I particularly like that some of you articulated the therapy is stupid point of view. Because it seriously is not for everyone. And people shouldn’t feel like they have to do it just because all the cool kids are!) A few things: Sienna, Secret Sloper left you a message in her comment (in case she didn’t also communicate it to you). CGD is a practicing therapist and has offered to answer questions about the process, which is very generous; you should take her up on it! She also pointed out that Resolve is a great resource for finding help. And finally, I meant to mention that I’d often decide I needed to see someone when I was feeling really awful (in crisis, as they say), but when the awful passed, I’d shelve the idea out of laziness. So if you’re contemplating the whole therapy thing, set it up even if you’re not currently wanting to crawl into a hole. You’ll thank yourself later.
But on to more important things: my BREASTS HURT. No, I’m not pregnant–that would be physically impossible…unless I produce Super Embryos that implant in a single day. (Ooo! Maybe it will turn out to be a vampire baby!) Plus this happened last month as well. Normally the old bosoms start hurting on day 21 of my cycle like clockwork, but last cycle it was around day 15, and came with ADDED LUMP. This month, again on day 15, but the lump has moved to the other breast. I seem to have picked up fibrocystic breast changes! I never should have sat down on that public restroom toilet…
Maybe this would have happened anyway–it’s a common condition (Andie, you said you have this–do you remember anything about the onset?). But the suddenness with which it appeared is really suspicious. I think this is some kind of unpleasant side effect brought on by either the Lupron or the surgery. So I have something else to thank infertility for.
Apparently I can go on oral contraceptives to reduce the discomfort…sweet.