My, I haven’t had a real two week wait in a while. I’m not really a fan. I’m doing my best to follow Low Fat Lady‘s advice: let go of all the what ifs, do everything I can, hope for the best. That does kind of quiet the noise in my head…but not for long.
Last night I saw two bunnies in the back yard, a big one and a smaller one. There’s no guarantee that it was a mamma and baby, and it’s not like I don’t see bunnies pretty regularly (one of the reasons I love my house so much!), but of course I want it to be an Auspicious Omen. The thing about Auspicious Omens, though, is that you just feel worse than ever when they turn out to be Meaningless Coincidences.
So I’m also reminding myself that, should things not go my way, I’ll get to have the biggest, most alcoholic drink on the face of the planet. And, I have to travel to CA for a conference (at which I have to give a keynote address! AAAAAAAAAH!!!) in a few weeks, and would be really worried about that if I were pregnant. So there will be a couple of upsides. Though you know as well as I do how completely un-comforting those upsides are when in the throes of disappointment.
Meanwhile…TOMATOES! They’ve arrived! We’ve been getting about one a day for the past week or so, and they are pretty damn tasty. I’ve made risotto, a tasty dish we call food stacks (basically puff pastry with carmelized onions, goat cheese, a slice of tomato, and some basil), and pizza. Just in case you thought I was only going to torture you dairyless, wheatless, low fat folks with desserts.