Another romatic vision dashed
So when you finally get pregnant after not-really-that-long-when-you-are-able-to-have-some-perspective-on-the-whole-thing, you get to experience things you’ve read about and dreamed about so wistfully. Like telling your partner about a positive test. As you know, that was not the romantic vision that I’d anticipated, and I don’t care. But one of the next thrilling events is supposed to be telling your loved ones, right? You think about who you’ll tell first and how excited they’ll be and blah blah blah.
Well, I blew it. You see, I had coffee with the Lady Professors. I’m fond of the Lady Professors, and we’re close enough that they know about my struggles, but we’re completely not Real Friends. We’re Close Work Friends: you know a lot about each other, but don’t really want to take things to the next level. Before going to meet them I told myself, Bunny, you’re going to want to tell, but you mustn’t. And I tried to keep the conversation away from myself, but LP1 starting really pressing about my reproductive plans. And before I was able to stop myself, out came the truth. On the one hand, no big deal. I’d want them to know if I had a miscarriage, so it’s not that I’m worried about telling them so early. On the other hand, why does a random group of women know this amazing secret?
(In case it’s not obvious, you guys are not a random group of women. Your my Special Secret Anonymous Friends! Even though that sounds like I’m touching you in your private place and trying to convince you not to tell your parents.)
Also, I can’t tell Mr. Bunny I spilled the beans. He’s enjoying the just-between-us nature of the situation and would feel betrayed. So I feel like a terrible lying traitor, too. This is probably coming off all waaah, poor me, I told the wrong people about my pregnancy! I DO realize this is not a genuine problem. I guess I’m just eternally surprised that Life ≠ Imagination.