Get thee to a BunBunery!
The Bunny household is going through some changes as we get hip to the reality of maybe possibly having a baby. It started when I convinced Mr. Bunny to spend some of the money we saved up for IVF on renovating our bathroom. Unlike many of y’all (I’m lookin’ at you, Misfit), we have zero skillz in the home repairs department, so are paying some nice people to do the work. While I’m sorry to brag about blowing our wad on toilets and drywall when many of you are hampered in your family-building options by finances, I’m pretty excited about this and can’t contain myself. The old bathroom was SKANKY, featuring a closet that perpetually grew mildew and a bunch of fixtures installed by blind monkeys.
We’ve also started clearing out the BunBunery, though we left some stuff in it until the renovation is over. And since we were ordering something from our favorite furniture place, we threw in a piece of baby furniture. It arrived a few days ago. I didn’t expect that to be an emotional event. It’s a changing table dealie, so not actually that thrilling–it’s not like we’re talking about a cradle full of storks or whatever. Plus, when I got home from work, it was sitting draped in plastic amid a bunch of other shit draped in plastic and covered in dust. But when the plastic came off, and we stood there looking at the first object purchased with our actual child in mind, in the room where he or she will actually live…wow. Mr. Bunny pantomimed changing a squalling baby, and I was totally overcome.
This is a recurring experience, I’m finding. It’s not like I am EVER not thinking about the fact that I’m pregnant. And now that I get regular reminders that being pregnant is not just some abstraction, but involves an actual fetus inside my body, it’s not like it doesn’t feel real. I guess it’s just that those years of trying made me so focused on the goal of pregnancy, so focused on longing for this crazy-awesome experience I’m currently having, that it can be hard to remember there’s something even better ahead. (Insha’Allah.) And when something brings that reality home, it’s pretty much mind blowing.