My period has returned. UGH! HATE! UGH!
When I became part of this community, I realized that I was lucky to have a nice, regular period that only occasionally makes me pass out with pain, and I’m grateful.
Just NOT TODAY.
I was really hoping to get at least six months. It’s a bitch with breastfeeding. I thought Bun Bun was having a massive growth spurt, but no, I’ve just been starving her as my hormones had a fun vacation in Menstruation Land. (Best theme park ever. Daddy! Daddy! Can we ride the Giant Tampon again?) Basically, exactly the same OH! Now it all makes sense experience Bionic had, because reading about hers had no effect on my tiny brain.
And…there’s something about menstruating while breastfeeding that makes me feel a little too Earth Mother Moon Goddess. If only I could simultaneously be pregnant as well, and, I don’t know, maybe also deliver a few babies, all while wearing a hempen shift.
And…although this has mainly passed by now, I find that I’m completely conditioned to respond to my period with intense disappointment and misery. I mean seriously, I felt crushed. And I had to actually remind myself that it’s OKAY. I have a BABY. Getting my period does not mean I am a FAILURE.
Sigh. Meanwhile, the abstinence only movement is still in full effect in our household. I KNOW! But if anything, I find the idea of sex MORE horrifying as time passes, not less. Hmmm…