Time is a human construct
I remember the first time it really sank in that time does not exist. It’s something we constructed, and all our ways of thinking about it and talking about it are just that. Sure, there are biological cycles, from the oscillations of neurons firing to the seasons, but that ain’t time. You might think this realization came early on, like when I read Madeleine L’Engle as a kid, or when I took physics in high school or some shit. No, it wasn’t until college.
Having a baby has made me realize it all over again. Time passes so strangely–both too quickly and too slowly. And so many things get lost and forgotten, or pushed aside.
Because Bun Bun has been amazingly easy, those things are NOT sleeping and bathing. But you may recall I bought a pattern for a tiny dress a while back? I made excellent progress at first, and this is how:
But then I made no progress at all for MONTHS. In fact, the project would still be sitting there half sewn had it not been for the fact that one day I remembered I can sew with MY HANDS. Yes, friends, sewing does not require a machine. So now the dress and bonnet are completed.
|Yes, it does match my skirt. I used scraps for Bun Bun’s dress, and while the whole matching mother-daughter outfit thing is not really me, Mr. Bunny insisted for the photo.|
Mr. Bunny took her out in the carrier while she was wearing her bonnet, and some scruffy shirtless guy washing down his orange Camaro and saw them and said OH MY GOD! WHAT A CUTE BONNET! That’s just a beautiful image. Everybody loves a bonnet.
Anyway, TIME. The semester is starting this week, without me. And while I am so, so, SO happy not to be resuming my duties, and still not quite able to imagine doing it again in January or, like, ever, it’s odd to have the rhythm of life not changing much as fall comes on. Fall has always been a time of anxious anticipation and energy. This year it’s a bit of a blank canvas.
Fortunately, it’s about time to start on Bun Bun’s Halloween costume.