Imagine a big cloud of purple smoke. And when it clears, here I am, ALIVE!
Sorry about the four-month gap between acts. Tell you what, FREE DRINKS FOR ALL!
So, what’s my story? Well, work. My job is probably a 40-hour a week job, and I’ve only been giving it 32 hours, so that’s required a shitload of intense and constant EFFICIENCY. I had to give up all those little moments of fucking around, which has resulted in a total inability to do anything productive during my off hours. Today is my “relaxing day,” as we’ve trained Bun Bun to call it, because we needed to help her understand why Mama is not available on Sundays (and why Daddy is not available on Saturdays), and I need to catch up on little odds and ends, and I’d feel BETTER if I did, but looking at the little, totally doable items on my to-do list gives me this feeling of DOOOOOOOM. So fuck you, chores. Imma watch bad TV and write this.
The other thing is that I’ve been doing a fair bit of thinking about some parts of my childhood that I believe have a big impact on my parenting. I feel like I owe it to my kids to do a little bit better than my mother did, but it turns out to be tremendously challenging and draining, and so, you know, I’m drained.
But these babies, oh, they are so, so worth it. Here’s Bun Bun. Her favorite book at bedtime for a while was the Sibley Guide to Birds, and she particularly loved the owl section, so I made her a spotted owl costume for Halloween. Upon seeing it she said, Want to be a snowy owl.
But she loved it and wanted to wear it every day for weeks, which turned out to be a thing I dreamed of without even knowing it.
And here’s Bunlet. He’s a western bluebird. A walking, sorta talking western bluebird. A bit grubby, in need of a haircut. He continues to be sunny and sweet, though now with a side of Wanting All the Things All the Time that can be a bit hard to take.
Anyway, classes are over for the semester. I feel a small bit of weight lifting. I feel like I might be able to partially dezombiefy before it all sets in again. ARE YOU NOT FUCKING EXCITED? Watch this space for more of my patented tedious bullshit.